Prologue for new life..

I've been married to a wonderful man, K for almost 4 months now and i'm happy i made the right choice. Through happiness and sorrow, we are there for each other.

Life has been joyous, tricky, overwhelmed... trust me, i've never thought i will get to feel all these emotions..

Despite all the happiness, I lost people so dear to me in a very short duration. I cracked, cried for nights, lost my words and have been in deep depression.

My grandma left us 1 month after my wedding. Last time i saw her was during my solemnization. She was sick but she insisted to came with all her might. . On one fine day, I received a call from my sister telling me she was no longer with us. My tears could not stop falling from that moment until her funeral. It is hard to accept that she left us as i've been growing up with her around for 27 years! One thing i regret most is that I postponed my visit to her after my wedding due to time constraint. Now, there are no time for me to pay her a visit anymore..

A week after the funeral, my wedding album was delivered. When i looked at my solemnization album, i could see her smiled while we took pictures together..

A few weeks later, i was pregnant. I felt my life change instantaneaously. I didnt have morning sickness, but i did feel the symptoms; nauseas, backache sudden acne rush, etc. Everybody was happy for a while until one day at my 10th weeks, I was bleeding. I know something was wrong with the baby. We went to the clinic then referred to the hospital. In between the process, i somehow felt the baby was no longer there. I had cried for whole day and night prior to the visit to the hospital as i know i wont be able to meet this little guy (i think this is what we called mother's instinct). After thorough scanning, the doctor confirmed the baby is gone.

There are 3 things i could not forget during miscarriage:
1) The contraction -  I had my contraction the night before D&C
2) The delivery - I could feel the huge clot coming out from my body
3) The freezing -  The icy cold Operation theatre

While i'm writing this blog at this very minute, i'm still in recovering mode. It was not easy, but with so many loving people around me, i know i can do it.

P/S: I shall stop posting my bride-to-be prep as i missed so much i might forget lots of things. But i will share the photos from my wedding soon..

Lots of luv,
eLLe

Pimple breakout!!

If the teenage me is the one writing this, yes, that is going to be the first thing she screams when she sees pimple right below her lips...

But the one writing this is an adult with a slight childish thinking i would say... And that's me.

As i grow older, same stuff did happen to me as to my younger self. Most of the time i'll be self-interpreted or comparing my surrrounding with my own life.. I just realized this, by the way through these scenarios:

1) Pimple breakout

The teenage me will start finding OXY cream or any other anti-pimples cream at INSTANT. She will increase the frequency of daily facial regime to ensure the pimple be gone in 2 days max.

But now, a pimple is not as bothersome as it used to be. When i saw one pimple on my face in the mirror, the first thing i would say to myself, "Owh, i've been stressing out too much". Then i started to think what actually has made me stressed out so much and trying to work things out. The pimple was left alone..

2) Watching movies

The teenage me always loved romance movie. She thought she was living in a fairy tale, waiting for her prince (or any other handsome actors she watched from a movie). She couldn't stand any action, horror, thriller kind of movies as she thought it was too harsh for reality.

These days were different. Everytime i watch a movie, i couldn't help myself trying to relate the storyline to what actually happened in my life. Even a thriller movie can somehow has the connection. Sometimes, i did got the answer to solve my difficulties from movies but most of the time i did not.

3) Decision making

This is the hardest part for me to tell the difference, but once i found it, i know it is so d*** true. The teenage me will want everything to go as what she wants. If she says 'pink', 'pink' must be the colour. If she says 'japanese', means sushi must be for dinner. If things are the other way around, even 1-month sulking is possible.

The fact that everything has to go as what she wants haven't really change. I still want things my own way but the principle changes to "I've always want something but I did not know if it is the right thing". Wanting something is not really the need for myself now. There are always considerations to be done prior to satisfying the hunger of wanting something.


These scenarios tell me that i'm no longer the spoon-fed kid. I am now in reality and i have to own my life. People around me will have to embrace the fact that I do change, physically, mentally, socially..

Note: I figured out that I actually can change my behaviour in a split second!

Lots of luv,
eLLe

My Rainy E-day :) - The Second Step

Yes, as the title says, it was raining during my engagement day..

Here are some pictures to share.. and for me and mr K's memories..

MAke up time with my favourite MUA - K wati from Nellyza

My future in-laws coming through the rain~

This was how we transported our hantarans..

Daddy nervously waiting...

While Mommy is happy! Finally her little girl decided to get married! Hilang masalah la tu..

Now.. here I come!

The moment i was about to change status...

I'm officialy someone's fiancee!

A moment with my lovely cuzzies (and aunty)

With my mom, my mom-to-be and the lil-attention-seeker Eryna



Ma familia... love you much! (Achik je tade dlm gamba ni)



My darlings with our all-time favourite mascot, Uzzy!



Our guests.. thank you for coming!

And below some beautiful shots from my cameraman, Hadi from Newbornpixs

My favourite profile picture to-date..



Me & K.. May we stay happy together forever.. In Shaa Allah..


Lots of luv,
eLLe

Soya Drive-Thru!

I went back to Perak last weekend for my April's melody (read previous post). As we hang out in Ipoh, i was brought for lunch in Ipoh town. I had my 'Nasi Ganja' (google it yourself, hihi) and soybean drinks (which i'm going to share here) for dessert.

The soybean shop is located at the corner of the road. I was actually at first, pissed off with those line-up cars parking right at the corner of junction. I almost started to curse, but in a few minutes time, we were already in front of the shop. It was a typical old Chinese shop located just by the busy street. A young man (the waiter) moved from car to car and took order. I was totally blur on what to order, so i ended up soybean with grass jelly which my friend ordered for me.

Funny Name!

The waiter taking order from the car window.

The drink was so refreshing! We can finish the drink in just 5 minutes. After paying the drinks, we drove off to give way to the next line-up cars. It was worth the experience!

Lots of luv,
eLLe

April's melody

It's April and my music passion hums in. Just like the lovely spring taking over the freezy winter, my days now fill with melodies i really love to hear..

Will be showing of my skills performing at one of the most memorable place in my life, my uni.

C u there!

Lots of luv,
eLLe

Saranghae, IU!

IU is a my top favourite Korean solo singer. With her angelic voice & cute looks, she definitely blows me away!

Just received this long-awaited album of IU from Valoa!

Front Cover

Back cover

It comes in this lovely package! 

Last Fantasy 2 Tracklist:

01 비밀 (Secret)
02 잠자는 숲 속의 남자 (Feat. Yoon Sang) (Sleeping Prince of the Woods)
03 별을 찾는 아이 (Feat. Kim Kwang Jin) (Child Searching for a Star)
04 너랑 나 (You and I)
05 벽지무늬 (Wallpaper Design)
06 삼촌 (Feat. Lee Juck) (Uncle)
07 사랑니 (Wisdom Tooth)
08 Everything’s Alright (Feat. Kim Hyun Cheol)
09 Last Fantasy
10 Teacher (Feat. Ra.D)
11 길 잃은 강아지 (A Lost Puppy)
12 4AM
13 라망 (L’ amant) (The Lover)

Lots of luv,
eLLe

ROCKPORT SHOES

I am very particular when it comes to shoes and bags. Comfort is always my priority when choosing shoes. Design will come next and budget will come later.

My feet is Type 'B'. Thus, it is very hard to find comfortable but cute covered shoes for me. I have been wasting hundreds of dollars just to find good shoes. I always end up having blisters here and there.

Last weekend, I just received this new pair of shoes from K! Totally comfortable! It feels like walking on a cushion and i feel cute too~ So far, no blisters at all! I will definitely use it well :)

TRULINDA BOW TIE WEDGE of ROCKPORT

I'm loving it! Thanks dear~

Lots of luv,
eLLe

Rings oh Rings..

In dilemma where to buy rings..

Tomei :
Expensive! But the wide range of PRETTY rings pulls me in~
Habib :
Just within budget, but quite limited design (new design still looks old fashion to me) Hahahaha~
Poh Kong :
I seldom get good impression when i step into any of their outlets. They sold cheaper than Tomei, though..
Emas Sri Pinang.
Good Service. Went in once, but due to not-so-attractive-to-me design, i never return again..

Just bought a simple my-type gold band from Tomei. Excellent service, but feel like broke when I step out from the shop..huhuhu

Looking for the girl's best friend now...

Lots of luv,
eLLe

Hannah & Hasya Updates..

I can't be apart from these two little darlings.. even if i dont see them for a day, i will miss them like crazy!


Hasya at 4-month-old


kakak Hannah in action!


Lots of Love,
eLLe

The Girls..

Some updates of my 2 lovely nieces...

Hasya @ 3 months old.. fluffy!

Hannah the noisy but cheeky girl!

Lots of luv,
eLLe

USS, small yet fun!

Been keeping these pictures for quite some time.. Let see how was my trip to Universal Studio Singapore..

Once you reached the entrance area of USS, the 'UNIVERSE' is now just behind you!

Once i got in, i realized when i get older, i want to be as pretty as Julie Andrew..

I wish i can have a carousel in my garden..

Went for vacation on board Enchanted Airways to mystical Faraway Land

Have a pit stop at New York..

And say hi when I met a Transformer on my way...

And finally.. TADAAAAAA!!! Its Far Far Away Land!

Shrek & Fiona asked us to be their friends and invited us to their swamp~ Ugh!

But the best part among all, I have PO as my tour guide and got a chance to dance with him!

Thank you PO, for the warm welcome. Bear Hugsssssss!!!

USS is all about magics, dreams & future.. Would love to be there again if someone bought me the tickets (both entry & flight!). Oh, did i mentioned went here on free ticket too? :P


Lots of luv,
eLLe

Honey & Lemon

When the lemon is young,
It tastes soury on the tounge,
But the sweetness from the honey,
Turns the zest to candy.

But honey takes hardwork,
Trust, understanding and teamwork,
From those kind, little bees we harvest,
To make a wonderful drink to quench the thirst.

Just like honey lemon juice for dinner,
We'll live in the future accompanying each other,
Through sweet and sour of life ahead,
We hold our hands, together without fail.

Craving For Yukgaejang!

Yukgaejang from Food Garden, The Gardens, Midvalley..



When will i be able to meet u again?? *drool*

Food & Love

A gift from K. Will use it well~

January Boys Birthday

Location: Sakura Kristal, Taman Melawati & Home



Happy birthday Akmal & Azri! Be a good man,ok?

We love u...

Pop Egg!!

Ochado is my new fav drink after Chatime. The left side is mine (hazelnut milk tea with pop egg) and K's on right side having passionate green tea (if i got that name right).
Those tiny little pop eggs will explode in your mouth! Try 'em!
(P/s: pop eggs are seasonal & LIMITED at some branches.)

Business Trip To Pasir Gudang..

My lunch view at Kedai Makan Rahmat, Pasir Putih, Johor.They have the freshest fried fish in town! And prawns too!

All i want 2 say

Hi,

Just feel like blogging today.

It's been 2 years and all i wanna say is:

I'm in love.



Lots of luv, 
eLLe

Bella @ 2 months old..

Hasya is getting sooo cheeky nowadays.. Very responsive when others try to talk to her.

But still, her crying pitch is the best in Kuala Lumpur!

Lots of luv,
eLLe

Puteri Hasya Esabella

Here you go..Lil' Bella new born face.

She is now 1 month old..

Sorry Bella, your busy aunty owes u a LOT!

Lots of luv,
eLLe